x+well im not special...+x

so i see here

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 20:41:56 GMT

that the last thing i posted was 16 weeks ago.

this post is for everyone. everyone in the whole entire god damn world who uses the internet. i just want to say that i:

hate the fucking internet
hate facebook
hate livejournal
hate twitter
and hate all this "social networking" bullshit that attract STRANGERS to eachother. its fucking weird
and it creeps me out
and i hate everyone and everything. i am entirely too pissed off for my own good, and i dont give a fucking fuck.

i want to delete facebook but i fucking wouldnt be able to keep in touch as easily as i do with my old co workers. god damnit.

with that being said, im deleting twitter too because its fucking annoying, stupid, and digusting. but mostly its fucking RETARDED. like everyone needs a status update on what johnny ate for lunch. or what kind of dumb bullshit susie q is going to do later tonight. jesus christ. kill me now. how do i get sucked into this ridiculous madness? ISN'T THERE MORE TO LIFE THAN HANGING OUT ONLINE?!

I HATE THE INTERNET.

I WISH IT WAS 1950.
FUCK.

ABOUT MARIA

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 04:55:54 GMT

maria sullivan is a whore!!! she told me!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 04:54:15 GMT

so basically im writing on here.... because maria wants me to. ahahhahaha. just kidding. kinda. well here i am on livejournal again. for the millionth time since i was 12 years old. wow, that was 10 years ago... hmm. anyway, i guess i'll write about my wonderful day.
well... here's what happened
i woke up.
got paid.
took a shower.
went to work.
got seriously cussed out for 20 minutes by an irate lady on my very last phone call of the night.
went to bk to get a veggie burger.
went home.
ate burger.
talked to maria.
ate candy.
felt sick from veggie burger.
looked at picture of rihannas injuries.
updated live journal.
and now its 11:52pm and here i am! what an exciting day. i talked to some old friends today through facebook... that is always nice. i'm gonna have a nice weekend this weekend. yay! also, i think i'm gonna look for a stupid survey or something to do later to pass the time. i like those gay things, and i haven't done one in a while. the end!

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 01:35:26 GMT

since no one reads this, i am going to take the time to say
my internal plumbing is not working properly. the end.

ummm.. today

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 18:13:56 GMT

well lets see. i only write in this when i am very happy or very mad. mostly because i dont care, but some things i would like to tell the world... and one of them goes like this:
JOEY
CHESTNUTT
SUCKS
NUTS.
ok? ok. kobayashi is the real champ. he was injured OKAY?! jesus/
fuck joey chestnutt. he sucks balls.

p.s. i hate you joey. faglord.

hmmm...

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 03:04:13 GMT

i like church. actually, i like church a lot. i like to go and i like the message and i like the people. i think i need some jesus up in my stupid life.

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 23:05:01 GMT

by cheesecake i meant cheesecake factory raspberry and chocolate cheesecake. mmmm

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 23:03:49 GMT

ohh my look at me im still here. well i just checked this because i was writing a boring ass paper for english and i got tired of it and i said ohhh hey let me look at LJ. and then i wished i didnt cause well it just isnt worth it i guess. anyway, i guess ill be going back to my paper now. im gonna try to write more in this biatch. i dont like school. but then again i never liked school. and today i made some muffins and almost bitch slapped this biatch at work. because she sucks and shes old and mean and i freakin hate her. anyway besides that all was well on my side of the fence. ok thats enough of this nonsense.
valentines day is next week and i want some cheesecake!

I LOVE

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 00:38:14 GMT

WORK!!!!
i looooooove being there.
its like my little home away from home... except i spend more time there than i do at my real home. and i love everyone there. im pretty sure thats why i love it so much. when i think about leaving there i get sad even though its like a few years away. but i just love it. i have stability there i must say.
i love my poo poo babies.

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 01:25:30 GMT

1. im back and ready for action!!!
2. i dont want to go to school. its gay.
and...
3.....
i love my purse!!! yay outrageously expensive coach leather products that i dont have to buy for myself!!!
but...
4. now i need the matching wallet. thats $210 dollars. half the price of the purse for 1/6 the size of dead animal. i refuse to support that!!! but i guess ill have to give in and buy it cause i have to have it. well, because it matches duh.
andddd..
5. im done housesitting and babysitting so i can live againnnnnnn oh
who would have ever thought i would babysit a child. oh my! how times have changed
and 6. i cant believe i gained alllll that weight back. well i can believe it it just sucks sooo... im going to the gym right..... now
peace out!

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 00:26:50 GMT

aaaaaawwwwwwwwww im in college!!!!
yay!!!! :):):):)
i cant wait to go to uvaaaaaaaaaaaaa

hahaha.

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 04:07:37 GMT

fuck

this

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 17:47:45 GMT

i hate you so much.
but i love you so much.

also, i want to work for a suicide hotline. one where you talk to the kids and help them, or try to atleast. i think then i could make a difference.

"if i want to listen to a song 20 times in a row, im gonna listen to a song 20 times in a row!"

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 05:31:54 GMT

well just some thoughts i guess. where to start. well,
im feeling really strange. im feeling very disappointed. so... lets see here, how to discuss without discussing. im confused. and angry, and disappointed like i said. and mostly so so so angry. with you. for everything, for ruining this. you did. and dont pretend like you didnt because i know that you did and now its too late and its your fault. and its not all your fault but mostly. and im so mad about that. im sooo mad. i cant even put it into words, its like so much feeling that i have NO feeling. at all. about anything. because do you know why? its easier that way. its so much easier. and its better for me, and i learned how to do that through everything you did to me previously. all the other times you blew me off and fucked me over and screwed with my feelings and self esteem and brain. and i dont care anymore i dont care at all. and thats a lie, because i do. and i hate you so much, i hate you so much i cant even tell you. so much its crazy, i swear i could kill you but i wouldnt. but i want to. but thats useless and stupid and gay so i wouldnt even think about it except that i already did think about it. i mean like right now, not that im planning to kill you. ugh. nevermind thats not what i mean and everyone knows what im trying to say, so anyway... this is probably the craziest thing ive ever written in here but it doesnt matter because i dont care what anyone thinks of me. or you. but i never did.
so i guess what im trying to say is, youll get over this as will i. and youll be as mad as i am right now, but atleast you have people to help you and disract you. or you could move away with your friends. or you could get 2 jobs and go to school. and youd never think about it again, ever. or you could eat ice cream and watch movies and cry. or you could do volunteer work. or you could drive cross county and visit every historical site you pass. or you could write me a letter everyday we dont talk and send them all to me at the end of the year. or you could mail a postcard to post secret. or you could adopt a pet. i could name countless things. none of which will give you the satisfaction of being with someone you love.
and you know what? i could write and write and write about this shit all damn day. i could because i never talk about it to anyone ever. because i know a few people kind of understand or will try to understand but noone actually does because noone knows EXACTALLY how i feel. you can kinda guess or you can be real close but you never can feel exactally like me because im not you. but im sure you can feel slightly better, or well, slightly worse. so i duno maybe people can relate. i mean i know you can relate but not totally. ugh. well im tired as hell and im really so fucking mad right now i cant even think straight. so im gonna go cry now since i havent yet, and i guess its finally here. so, thats what im gonna go do.
this is the craziest shit ive ever written.

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 22:45:57 GMT

so this is what happens at my place of employment:

john: so was that your mr. goodbar that james ate?
me: yeah. bastard
john: so your saying you had a craving for nut then?
me: *silence*

then we both laughed like maniacs.
by the way, john is 39 and has 3 kids and a wife. HOW INAPPROPRIATE
but incase you couldnt tell, i dont do much work there. im more like a distraction for everyone

and i LOOOOOOOOOVE it!!!!!!!!!!!!! its so fun :) :) :)

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 03:46:58 GMT

i just wrote an entry in the whatwemiss community. i dont usually do stuff like that, write in communities that is. cause i dont know any of those people. but it made me feel kind of better, mostly sad. so in honor of that
let me write something in here that i miss:
i miss...
you being my friend, since you havent been for like the last little while.
dont ask.

on another note, me and maria had alot of fun this weekend. we went to tysons corner and bought alot of outrageously expensive stuff. but it was awesome. and fun. and definately worth the money. i finally got a chanel necklace!! :):):):)
and some chanel lip gloss and christian dior eyeshadowww.... and a manicure and pedicure and massage from a crazy asian old man that almost killed me. but we ate at the cheesecake factory, and my god that is like the best place ever. that has to be my favorite place to eat in the whole worrrrld. (well besides pizza hut). hehe. jesus its 1144 i have to go to sleep.
but no seriously, this weekend was so much fun. tysons corner is the bombbb and we went to neiman marcus and saks but both of them were closed when we got over there. :( but there were like christian dior and gucci and prada and yves saint laurent purses in thereee we could see them through the window. im sure there were alot more but we couldnt see them. damnit. i wanted to go in :( stupid store closing at 7pm on a saturday, how retarted! grrr. well anyway i guess im going now. tommorow i get to measure lots of men for their uniforms at work. WHAT A GREAT WAY TO START THE DAY! those f-ing bastards. measure yourselves!!!!

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 10:45:34 GMT

see? i cant do anything right.

i dont write in this... ever

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 02:39:01 GMT

but i think maybe i will start. with this gay song. that is, well, not gay. but im sure everyone else will think it is

you take my hand and you say youve changed,
but boy you know your begging dont fool me, because to you its just a game

so let me on down, cause time has made me strong
im starting to move on, im gonna say this now
your chance has come and gone, and you know...

its just too little too late, a little too long, and i cant wait;
but you know all the right things to say,
you know its just too little too late.

you say you dream of my face, but you dont like me,
you just like the chase.
to be real
it doesnt matter anyway...
you know its just too little too late

so im going to UVA again this weekend. cause its marias bitchday. i mean.. birthday. and i will not be so drunk this time!!!!!!!! :):):) yayyy for puking on a bus!!!!!!!

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 05:11:21 GMT

sad. i am sad.

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 00:40:40 GMT

everybody will rot
in hell.

so this is what i have to say about valentines day.

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 20:03:03 GMT

i cant wait. regardless of what you tools might think, i have never had a boyfriend on valentines day... even though ive been in a relationship for almost 2 years now. yeah, its complicated.
anyway, point being.... this will be great! to be not single on valentines day, oh ive waited 19 years. its about time. i really love valentines day, i like fluffy stuff and pink and red and white and sparkly, shiny stuff... but most of all i just love candy. ohhhhh how i love candy. how i wish i could eat some right now but alas i cannot. so, all in all to those of you who are not going to be doing anything this vday i am sorry. i know the pain and annoyance of it all. but one day everyone will be happyyyyyyyyyy and noone will be alone on vday hopefully. but i mean like when everyone is like 35 and married. well, whatever. be happy anyway. i dont know the point of all this. i think im just bragging like a homo. WELL ITS ABOUT TIME I CANT HELP IT IM EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahoo!!!!

rock out with your cock out yeahhhhhhhhhh

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 01:00:46 GMT

hahah oh god.
so,
christmas!!!! it was christmas everyone!!!!!!!!! GUESS WHAT I GOT
GUESS GUESS GUESS
NEW TIRES FOR MY CAR!! AND GUESS WHAT ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOTHINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
wooooooo i just love christmas especially when i dont get any presents yeahhhh.
oh but by the way...
i bought about 400 dollars worth of presents for my mom and dad and my brother. so its nice seeing the gesture returned. not.
ha! f christmas thats the last time im nice to anybody. BUT on another note i got an awesome present from my boyfriends mommmmmm. a whole BIG
GIGANTIC
HUUUUUUUUUUUGEEEEEE
pink case full of ulta makeup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now thats what im talking about. if only my real family used their eyes once in a while. bastards.
ok bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yayyy oh i just love posting in lj. haaa not really. only kind of. but it is nice to write in here every sooooooooooo often. yeahh ok. bye damnit.

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 00:29:19 GMT

well adam is here and he told me to write something nice about him so i am. even though he doesnt like this song that i love that i am listening to right now. ass. but in other words!!!! i love adam he is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice and he buys us pizza to eat and i love pizza we all know that!!!!!!!! but he still sucks for not liking this song. but that is his own deal. well anyways i loooooooooooove adam and he is sooooooo sweet and i looove him and i love his new shirt from hollister too. ;) ha ha haaaaaa hi adam hi when you read this i hope you have fun at your new job tommroowooww!!!!!! he hehe ho hoho ha haha!!!!!!!!!!! i love you!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 18:51:16 GMT

well im very sick. and i had to call out of work today and tommorow. and im going to the doctor tommorow.
this is one hell of a flu. or cold. or whatever. i bet i have pneumonia or something. im sneezing blood. jesus.

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 05:41:52 GMT

oh and
i have the flu and a fever and i just threw up like .003 seconds ago!!!!!!!!!
adam is sleeping
so there is noone to take care of me. and earlier my mom said she didnt care that i was sick. which she doesnt cause she has done nothing to help me so far, nor has she even been nice to me. fabolous!